| poem: secret maze |
[08 Nov 2006|05:06am] |
The Secret Maze
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Need a needle to sew two hemispheres
Gouge a way in, through and out
Track the path
Heart ulceration
Fizzles in the center
Searing cell down to nucleus
These are the planet orbits
Cell orbits
Debris of the "why did I? / How could you? / Why won't you?"
Debris of the stone city,
Left behind...floating
But what of the red pulp heart of stone center?
Will you eat it?
Is it nourishing?
There is a bloody meat there
Count the palpations
one heart
1000 tick tocks
And a small voice says "hear me? here. here. do you hear me right here?"
Back into the labyrinth
Coming down the next corridor
They melted a diamond today
They said it wasn't easy
I said, "you never tried then before"
Here is diamond melting of pro perfection
I have a glass of diamond liquid in my Egyptian tear collector
Red heart juice baby...said red heart, turns clear when diamond melting
Oh Alchemical wedding why do you come so late?
And so the entrails, the brain folds, the heart valves, the arteries all offer their hallways for you to explore
If you don't mind the scars and ulcers of red walls with shredded tapestries...
Come inside and see
The once pearl bleeding on a vase of my cruel architecture,
The grail collecting the seed of the pomegranite
Red sculpted cell
The shining facets of my mistrodden path
I will digest this seed of toxicity
The seed of destruction
The elixir of life's progenitor
Cruel motivator
Secret Mercy
Merciful propulsion
Down the road of always
Into the depths of forever
Smashing the rubies as I go
Carving the new diamond
Cutting a path with the point of this heart
I cauterize the ulceration
I wrote the map to find the treasure:
Ruby cells
Diamond cuts
Ruby blood
The diamond path
Unto the hearts center
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[15 Feb 2006|05:19am] |
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Life has been hectic. All hell broke loose and plans got messed up. I broke up with my fiancé of 7 years because I got cold feet. A long story really. But the good news is we are still best friends and we might get back together. This time apart has really helped me sort things out. I really love him. He is in Iceland now and I am in the USA, he has been there since early December. I really miss him, but he is coming to visit April 6- 17th. We will then reacess our relationship. If we get back together then I might move to Iceland soon. If not, then I still might move to Iceland soon because I am going to apply to the University of Reykjavík to go to shcool. Right now all is up in the air. So, we will see! Wish me the best!
Ruby:)
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| the big move |
[28 Jun 2005|03:01pm] |
I´m moving to Iceland at the beginning of december instead of waiting until next year.
I´m very excited and starting to plan...nervous and impatient.
°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°
i´ll keep that moment forever
it will not fade
it can not
it is eternal
but now i will press pause
it can go no further
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| Wedding date! |
[28 Mar 2005|03:55pm] |
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We have finally chosen our wedding date for the icelandic wedding. Its is:
June 17, 2006!
we chose this for four reasons:
1. His parents were married that day.
2. It is the Icelandic independance day, and therefore people will remember it better.
3. It falls on a saturday which is perfect.
4.I love the number 17 ! : )))
Now we have to get planning more and figure out when the USA wedding will be. Sometime later though but not too much later.
(cross posted to my other journal ruby_ice)
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| Meeting Tori Amos |
[21 Mar 2005|11:57pm] |
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On March 17, 2005- St. Patricks day. I met Tori Amos at a bookstore for a signing of her new autobiography and her new cd. It was in Washington D.C....Georgetown Barns and Knobles to be exact.
This was such a great day. :) Before I had met her I was a fan of many of her songs but not she never matched up to my heros Björk and Kate Bush. But since I have met her, I have got to say I have a better appreciation of her and her music. She seems to be such a sweet lady and when you meet her you can tell she is REAL. Her music is not meant to conform to society in order to win fans or money, her music is from the heart. I went to meet her with my friend Tahney who is one of her biggest fans. I´m so glad I did. I´m so glad that I avoided crying or any screaming, foolish fan behaviour because I might not have made a connection with her if I did. When I went up to her at first I could tell she had sort of a blank stare, a fake smile a happy put on mask for fans in order to protect herself but she shook my hand and asked my name and as she started to sign my book I told her I just had one question. I asked her if she ever had a concert in Iceland. At that very moment I got her attention....she slowly turned her head and looked right at me. She said with a big smile 'actually , yes I did!' I think the fact that I was not groveling at her feet but rather talking to her in a normal way got her to take off her fan shielding mask. we then proceeded to talk about Iceland a bit. It was nice.I told her the reason I wanted to know is because I was moving there in a year with my icelandic fiancé and hoped she would do a concert there someday. She commented on the drinking and partying she noticed when she was there and that Iceland is green and greenland is icy. I told her I was there 5 times but never in winter and then we both said at the same time "it can get depressing then!" ,I said "yeah 'cause it stays all dark!" she said "yeah but then all light for the summer! so you should maybe go to spain in the winter or get a summer home there." and I said "or i'll just come back here to visit my mom! "She said she liked Iceland very much, that it was beautiful. She asked her body gaurd to try to help her remember the exact year of the concert....they said that they think it was 1992. I think she said she had been there other times as well just for fun but I can´t rememeber exactly i was sorta in a state of excited confusion. She congratulated me of my future marriage and wished me a happy life in Iceland. In both my book and cd she wrote to Kathy <3 (heart)Tori Amos. When she handed me my book and cd she had such a sweet smile and she said "there you go gorgeous!" I was on cloud nine. I couldn't belive she said that to me. It both raised my self esteem and made me feel embarrassed at the same time.I told her I was nervous mostly because of the crowd and all the hype surrounding her she said "ah don't worry about them " as she nodded at the crowd and winked at me. And then as I was about to thank her and walk away so the next person could meet her, she opened her arms and offered me a hug! I didn't even ask. :) As I walked away I said "thanks for the music!" She smiled and winked once again.:) Tahney made a connection with her too, she got extra little drawings in her book...a smily face, a star and a heart. We were both happy cornflake girls. :)
(cross posted to my other journal scumater)
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[08 Mar 2005|12:16am] |
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The Sculpting
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Casual clay
What's "nature made"...
Anymore?
A crease
Do your ironing!
Add some plaster
You look a little tight, dear
(Oh woman beautiful, you're only better sliced and peeled)
Casual clay
A crow was walking....
Near each eye
Do your ironing!
Cut some meat off
(Oh woman beautiful, you're only better sliced and peeled)
Sculpting clay
Grandma's ugly
Every line made
Tells a story
But....
Add some plaster
Add some plaster
Cut some meat off
Inject poison
(Oh woman beautiful, your only better sliced and peeled)
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© Katherine A. Brenner 2005
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| something else |
[25 Feb 2005|09:02pm] |
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| war at sea |
[25 Feb 2005|08:59pm] |
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[23 Jan 2005|06:04pm] |
there are hairs in my throat
and fish in my eyes
and when i die
i'll be born onto you
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[30 Jul 2004|07:48am] |
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adline
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in disguise
pretty eyes
maybe a mouth
that's how i imagine her
she could be a prodigy
or a man with ten scars and turniquette
but every l e t t e r
is poetry/glossy moonbeams
and masonic secrets
one dot and a vast cosmic alliance
she is a portal
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© Katherine Anne Brenner 2004
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[15 Apr 2004|02:51pm] |
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Macrocosm/Microcosm
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I found God
between the lips
She was dancing
I found God
In the funny bone
He was hiding
In my ears around the hair cells
When the bass hit
I found God
In my reflection
On the mirror with my lipstick
When the bass hit
When the bass hit
She came with the climax
In the orgasm
I found Him in the cat-nap
on the whiskers
in the oven
with the baked bread
I found God in my reflection
He was hiding
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© Katherine Anne Brenner 2004
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[19 Feb 2004|07:38pm] |
short
.....
Quick!
Snap!
Over-
(Too short to follow)
red and black leather
garters
Off with the panty hose!
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© Katherine Anne Brenner 2003
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[02 Dec 2003|10:00pm] |
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silver eyes ice and anger// soft melody of my heart in danger
yum give me more
we respect you
because you are loved
for your torn eyes and sooty hands
and the body that left you
no wonder your teeth rot
your skin peels
and your mouth, oh your mouth what happened to it? dry and bitter
frozen finger tips and ugly habits
you make it beautiful
like vomit as music
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| a corny love poem: |
[03 Nov 2003|07:15pm] |
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Captivated
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He glides me through the air like an arrow
(I want to rest my head on him at night)
He has given me all the flowers
(That a girl could wish she ever had)
And nothing compares to it...
Nothing compares to being with him
He has hit my heart
And the love gushes out
I am captivated.
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© Katherine Anne Brenner 1998
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| The Dream |
[22 Jul 2003|09:56am] |
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Moana: Deftones |
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Tilt the house
And she falls down
Black-eyed Barbara
With crackers
Pokes him with a real long rod
Give me two banana's and water
Don't kill the bullfrog
Kitty's got a hair ball
Vasoline will get it out
& peanut butter
Take the church bus into town
He's hiding in the bushes....
Red with horns.
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© Katherine A Brenner 2002
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[10 Jul 2003|03:19am] |
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Unscathed
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I am my elbows out and a side-ways frown
Put your shit into me
Into my angry serpentine
Salty blood vessels/calcium deposits,
deposit on my knees as I scream
That funky grandfather clock
He took time
He wiped it up
I'm shattering my shattery eye baby
Licking into me is that dog, as I lick into that old lady
I'm looking
FEEL BAD!
FEEL THAT!!
--you, FEEL IT!!!
Androgyny,
I am psycho-tectonic-plates and earth spinning
On my four-wheel-drive
On my open-up knee-slime
Like Whale alive,
pouring Slobo-Babe into the right
I'm in the right galaxy light
I'm raspberries in a basket
I'm outer-space light
and I'm that old lady looking...
FEEL BAD!
FEEL THAT!!
FEEL IT!!!!!
My only release from this "Leonardo-Dicapitate-me-thing"....
is this:
Write it on wood
Write it with your eyes pinned
(like with bobby-pins)
Silver fuck/silver fist/can't-save-you-from-it
There is no dick to fucking fuck you with
calcium deposits/open-mouth kiss
And......................
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I will relay your message to that man in the infirmary,
And he'll kill a couple of eyes for you (without looking).
Feel bad
Feel that
You, feel it!
FEEL BAD!
FEEL THAT!!
DO YOU FEEL IT FEEL IT FEEL IT?!?!?!?!?
It comes to kill me.
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© Katherine Anne Brenner 2000/ fixed 2003
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